Will It be better off this way?

Ignoring the person.
Avoiding the person.
Showing an 'I dont care' face.
Would it be better that way?
Keeping distance between.
Pretending to hear nothing when the person calls you.
Trying to act cool and natural.
Would it be better this way?
Hurt dwelling from inside, from a situation you actually planned and made true,
Trying your best to smile when the person favored a rather another person other than you,
Staring at times noone is to notice, at the person you admire,
You reason it out, It'd be better this way, rather supposed to be.
Secret no one has to know, you keep from your bestfriend,
You burst it all out on your blog, you made a post,
The account you use, a secret too.
dissapointed to see the person, with another, You are.
hate lingers inside, ready to strike.
You control yourself, there's no need for this, It's a simple crush.
at home, hoping a miracle would happen, it is when he mails you,
But at the same time think it's pretty hopeless and a stupid thing to ask for.
And it really doesn't happen, you get angrier.
What the hell is with me, you say, feeling useless
Everytime you see the person, you try to look You despise the person
But deep inside, there it is, feelings of love, Hungering for attention.
Would it be better that way?